There are so many things I want to say about this book, but I can't. I really can't. I don't have the ability to articulate how much I loved this book. But I sure as hell will try.
So let's start off with the characters, Jed and Max. For a little while I was unsure whether these two would work as a couple. I don't really know why, but that was just how I felt for a short time. That changed very quickly and I was pleasantly surprised by how much I loved these boys. They both had issues and things in their pasts that they struggled with. Jed's was more recent and it was also still happening, so I really felt for him throughout a large percentage of this book. As a couple, I really thought they worked well and even though they had their secrets, it didn't take from anything. Also, people have mentioned the lack of 'I love you's'. Normally that would bug me, but a couple of people have already said it, they showed they were in love. When things really went to hell, I just knew that the love was there, even when it wasn't said.
This book had a lot going on beside the romance. Between the family problems and the combination of major and less major health issues, there was a lot going on in this book. It was probably one of the best angsty books I have read in a long time. Now, I'm not saying I don't enjoy angst, but I don't enjoy certain types, but I was really impressed with it here. And part of that was probably because I loved these characters and I cared and I wanted a happy ending for them. And when things went to hell, I was reading it and really worried that things would really not end in a nice and happy way. I was so close to screaming from frustration because I wanted things to start going right! Goddamn it, I really thought things couldn't get worse. But they did.
I also want to point out that this is an emotional book. There were times I could imagine people shedding tears and possibly bawling because there were a lot of feelings here. Especially when it came to Paul and Jed. I wasn't sure about that for a while. It just made me pause for a moment and I thought about it. I mean I really
thought about it. It wasn't just something thrown in there. I really did feel the feelings between him and Jed and it wasn't an issue for me. Actually, I think it just added to the story. Dead or not. Paul was an important person in Jed's life and his letter was perfect. And then there was Max and how he stood by Jed during that really dark and scary time. I so wanted to climb into the book and hug him and just tell him that everything was going to be okay. But I wasn't sure if it was going to be okay or not.
Okay, so I think I've probably gone on long enough and I hope I was able to do a semi-okay job with this review. If not, then there are plenty of wonderful reviews out there for this book and I would encourage you to go check those out. But in all honesty, I really enjoyed this book. It might have been the cover that first attracted me to this book because I must admit I love the cover too, which is always a bonus. But the cover did not influence my feelings for this book overall. Definitely a book I will read again one day.